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Thursday, August 27, 2009
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Respond to Comment (J#1)
Mrs S, that always seems to be my problem huh ? "Showing" instead of "telling." I promise I'll get better at it. I see what you mean but I always forget to show. I will work on it now!
Thanks Mrs S,
Thanks Mrs S,
Vent Sesh (J#3)
What bugs me the most right now? Currently, the balancing of friendships. Its so hard to keep all my friends equally on top of news when I personally hate repeating myself. No way could all my closest friends be at one place at the same time. Breaking it down, two best friends go to Moanalua High School with me and another two go to other schools. Keeping confidential so let's call the ones that don't go to my school "Walter & Bernice." Also, to not get confused, let's call the two that go to my school "Niki & Alexis," haha :)
Its so easy to keep Niki & Alexis updated since they're right there when the news first comes. On the other hand, Walter & Bernice don't go to my school but they are my number one best friends. They'll always be first because they knew my past; the past that makes my present. Walter & Bernice have grown so distant since we seperated after middle school and into high school. Thats when I met Niki & Alexis. Being a teenager and facing "minor problems and situations," such as homework, school, boys, interests, etc., I need friends who could relate and "know" what I'm talking about instead of me trying to explain the single details that are vital to a story. Keeping Walter & Bernice on top of things became my main concern. Everytime I would have news it's a "snap" to my phone to tell them whats up. Being in seperate schools created a barrier to our communication. The walls of our schools became the walls to our friendship. Them being on seperate schedules and having their school terms interfere with being able to communicate withered away our strong friendship. Yes, I do still see them. Once a week we have confirmation class but we never talked the other 6 days that week. Knowing our strong friendship and how much each other meant, that is the lowest downgrade ever possible.
It hurts. It hurt all three of us but we did what we could only do to protect ourselves: shield ourselves from each other. Maybe that wasn't a good idea and maybe thats not the reason we became so far away but it still hurts the same amount. We've confronted each other & tried to make it work a bazillion times. I still believe we have a chance because I love them so much. Too much to ever just give up in an instant. Sometimes I feel like running away just to set a clear mind but I knew it could only make things worse. Frankly, I blame myself for being scared and not talking to them more about the solution rather than just the problem. I got too scared that I hid it. I trained myself to hide the things that bothered me the most from them. I just recently found out it was a mistake to have done that. Never would I have known that they were feeling the exact same thing and reacting the exact same way. Also, I felt guilty to have made best friends that I am so close with now because I feel like I pushed them away. I don't regret making friends with Niki & Alexis but I hate that it hurt Walter & Bernice.
Wrapping up, I want to be close again with Walter & Bernice again. Close enough that it doesn't feel awkward to be around them anymore or we're too afraid to dial 7 numbers & press the green button. I believe I will because I know them & I know me. We won't let each other get too far out of reach. This journal really makes me feel better and so much more uplifted. I feel rejuvenated and awakened. This has got me thinking and I know what my next steps towards this situation is now. Like Kasey says, "Venting is Healthy!"
Its so easy to keep Niki & Alexis updated since they're right there when the news first comes. On the other hand, Walter & Bernice don't go to my school but they are my number one best friends. They'll always be first because they knew my past; the past that makes my present. Walter & Bernice have grown so distant since we seperated after middle school and into high school. Thats when I met Niki & Alexis. Being a teenager and facing "minor problems and situations," such as homework, school, boys, interests, etc., I need friends who could relate and "know" what I'm talking about instead of me trying to explain the single details that are vital to a story. Keeping Walter & Bernice on top of things became my main concern. Everytime I would have news it's a "snap" to my phone to tell them whats up. Being in seperate schools created a barrier to our communication. The walls of our schools became the walls to our friendship. Them being on seperate schedules and having their school terms interfere with being able to communicate withered away our strong friendship. Yes, I do still see them. Once a week we have confirmation class but we never talked the other 6 days that week. Knowing our strong friendship and how much each other meant, that is the lowest downgrade ever possible.
It hurts. It hurt all three of us but we did what we could only do to protect ourselves: shield ourselves from each other. Maybe that wasn't a good idea and maybe thats not the reason we became so far away but it still hurts the same amount. We've confronted each other & tried to make it work a bazillion times. I still believe we have a chance because I love them so much. Too much to ever just give up in an instant. Sometimes I feel like running away just to set a clear mind but I knew it could only make things worse. Frankly, I blame myself for being scared and not talking to them more about the solution rather than just the problem. I got too scared that I hid it. I trained myself to hide the things that bothered me the most from them. I just recently found out it was a mistake to have done that. Never would I have known that they were feeling the exact same thing and reacting the exact same way. Also, I felt guilty to have made best friends that I am so close with now because I feel like I pushed them away. I don't regret making friends with Niki & Alexis but I hate that it hurt Walter & Bernice.
Wrapping up, I want to be close again with Walter & Bernice again. Close enough that it doesn't feel awkward to be around them anymore or we're too afraid to dial 7 numbers & press the green button. I believe I will because I know them & I know me. We won't let each other get too far out of reach. This journal really makes me feel better and so much more uplifted. I feel rejuvenated and awakened. This has got me thinking and I know what my next steps towards this situation is now. Like Kasey says, "Venting is Healthy!"
Saturday, August 15, 2009
"coming of age" essay draft
A “coming of age” time in my life would be my 8th grade retreat. I went to a retreat at St. Stephan’s Church. It was my first overnighter field trip that lasted three days. What made it the most special was that it was my birthday and I was going to spend it with my friends. It felt like I rented a hotel with just my friends and was having one of those cool parities that cool, older people threw.
Since I went to a Catholic School, this retreat was about reaching out to find ourselves in God. To be in a church and experience all these services and activities with getting in touch with God was very life-changing. As we did exercises I could feel him with me. It was so spiritual and touching that every night we would cry. The feeling I was getting was so uplifting & it was like I was renewing myself.
A activity we did was make these bags where other classmates would drop a note in your bag and tell you things like, a secret, a positive note, etc. As I read the notes in my bag, I felt like with every note an even bigger smile was put on my face. The emotions my heart felt was indescribable and irreplaceable. For once, it felt full and more in pieces. Honestly, I felt like I just died and was in heaven.
It really tuned into my classmates and my mind and left us with a feeling of overwhelm. The retreat put questions in our minds such as: “What are you doing with your life? Where do you want to go? What’s your next step?” I remember that they made us do a trust walk where we would hold the shoulders of the person in front of us and follow them as we close our eyes. We put our bodies and our trust on them. The feeling of that trust in someone gives off that power of friendship.
This retreat taught us the reason life was worth living and prepared us for what was after 8th grade; high school. It told us not to forget about God and how much he impacts our lives. Sadly, I did lose touch with God but just recently got requited. I can tell you that the feeling of having God in your life is the best feeling yet. Nothing can compare the love and devotion he can make you feel. He makes your worries go away and leave you with the smile on your face that can last dozens of years but only if you remain loyal to him.
This is the perfect coming of age story because in three days I never knew I could grow up so fast. I aged three ways; through God, through age, & through life-changing thoughts. Especially since it was my birthday I felt reborn and open minded. It was like in those three days, I grew up and found myself. In three days, from 12yrs old - a newly born teenager. It can be done.
Since I went to a Catholic School, this retreat was about reaching out to find ourselves in God. To be in a church and experience all these services and activities with getting in touch with God was very life-changing. As we did exercises I could feel him with me. It was so spiritual and touching that every night we would cry. The feeling I was getting was so uplifting & it was like I was renewing myself.
A activity we did was make these bags where other classmates would drop a note in your bag and tell you things like, a secret, a positive note, etc. As I read the notes in my bag, I felt like with every note an even bigger smile was put on my face. The emotions my heart felt was indescribable and irreplaceable. For once, it felt full and more in pieces. Honestly, I felt like I just died and was in heaven.
It really tuned into my classmates and my mind and left us with a feeling of overwhelm. The retreat put questions in our minds such as: “What are you doing with your life? Where do you want to go? What’s your next step?” I remember that they made us do a trust walk where we would hold the shoulders of the person in front of us and follow them as we close our eyes. We put our bodies and our trust on them. The feeling of that trust in someone gives off that power of friendship.
This retreat taught us the reason life was worth living and prepared us for what was after 8th grade; high school. It told us not to forget about God and how much he impacts our lives. Sadly, I did lose touch with God but just recently got requited. I can tell you that the feeling of having God in your life is the best feeling yet. Nothing can compare the love and devotion he can make you feel. He makes your worries go away and leave you with the smile on your face that can last dozens of years but only if you remain loyal to him.
This is the perfect coming of age story because in three days I never knew I could grow up so fast. I aged three ways; through God, through age, & through life-changing thoughts. Especially since it was my birthday I felt reborn and open minded. It was like in those three days, I grew up and found myself. In three days, from 12yrs old - a newly born teenager. It can be done.
Monday, August 10, 2009
First Blog Post - Writing
My writing experiences include essays I've written, classes I've taken, & books I've read. I think my writing became more developed when I reached High School. Before, I've never really written essays that are personal, which is my most successful topic. Things that are more personal & more about what I think are much easier to write because then I have no limit to what I can talk about. Bumping up my writing status in High School was really good for me. I got to understand the breakdown of an essay & its traits that should reflect in each writing piece. I knew the basics like beginnings, middles, & ends but when I was introduced to 6 traits of writing I got to fully understand how to write essays in a more proffessional level.
My goals in writing is to have my story flow and connect together putting them in the right sequences. I want to make the readers more interested with every line & have them say, "I think that was the best one I've heard." Also, to have less "dictionary words" and to have more specific ones. Another one would be to fully understand all 6 traits and how vital they are to a piece of writing.
My goals in writing is to have my story flow and connect together putting them in the right sequences. I want to make the readers more interested with every line & have them say, "I think that was the best one I've heard." Also, to have less "dictionary words" and to have more specific ones. Another one would be to fully understand all 6 traits and how vital they are to a piece of writing.
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